Goals are hard for me to make and why

Sometimes I think that I would love to have a very nice RV to travel about in and plenty of money so that I could go anywhere.....BUT THEN.....what I really want is to travel in the etheric so it is hard for me to be content with just traveling about in an RV when that is a limited concept. An RV won't get me to Shamballa I don't imagine.  

I want robust health and skill in doing any thing I desire to do. 

As far as wanting money, I don't really want X numer of dollars. I want unlimited resources be it money or supplies of any needed thing so it is hard for me to focus upon a certain amount of money to set as a goal to reach.

I want  comforts such as air conditioning and heating and a real laid back kind of living, and then I think, "But so many don't  even have electricity or running water in their homes and how could I luxzuriate knowing that they do without....so I felt selfish to just wish for comforts. I thought that I might want fame but then the thought that I could possibly succomb to the "glory trip" associated with being famous  made me think, "well maybe the world does not need someone they  would look up to as much as someone they could simply see as a friend. I don't know that I could handle fame, but were it to come my way I would sure work hard to keep it from ruining me.

I feel that I have found a kind of communication with God and so when I look about and see couples who have each other, I think "Well I am not really alone" nor am I  "too awful lonely". Still it would be nice to meet someone special only if they loved God and wanted similar things in life as me. So what it all boils down to is that I want to be enlightened and walking in this world but not being of this world as the Masters who have ascended are.  Able to come and go as I please, hearing always the voice of God, and doing all that God wants me to be doing in this world to help awaken sleeping mankind.  <